Chronicles of a Healing Soul

Have you ever felt far from God? Like there was this wall between you and God? Or maybe a wall isn’t the right word. Maybe it felt more like a dark chasm or thick fog.
Today, we keep company with Job, a man who lived thousands of years ago but who felt far from God just like us.
Hidden deep within his cries of agony, we might just find a silver thread of hope.
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Scripture Reading: Job 13, 14, 16, 17, 19 (NIV '84, with some select verses from NASB '95)
My Reading: "A Wall Between Me and God" by Elizabeth Hayashi
Scripture References outside of Job:
Chronic pain as a "Messenger of Satan" - 2 Corinthians 12:7
"Physical proof of our innocence" - Hebrews 12:24
"A Wonderful Counselor" - Isaiah 9:6
A God who puts our tears in His bottle - Psalm 56:8
"What if we could know that God isn't looking at our sins at all, that God isn't accusing us?" - Romans 8:1
A shoot from Jesse's stump - Isaiah 11:1
"That which we have heard, which we have seen with our own eyes..." - 1 John 1:1
Feet that walk towards disease - Luke 5:12-13
Feet anointed for burial - John 12:3, 7
"Let yourself exist as a part of His body yourself" - 1 Corinthians 12:27
 

If I can manifest good things for my life, does that mean that the bad things are my fault?
This is not just a theoretical question. It's practical and important. We need to know if we can control the outcome. Because if we can that's a heavy weight for each of us to carry.
But if we can't, then we need to know we have someone who cares who can shoulder that weight for us.
Welcome to today's conversation on God, suffering, and humanity.
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Scripture Reading: Job 8, 9, 11, 12 (NIV '84)
My Reading: "The Dark Side of the 'Prosperity Gospel'" by Elizabeth Hayashi

"No one is comfortable with pain. Not the people in pain. Not the people watching the pain. We want to get out of it and help others out of it. And I think that's what Eliphaz was trying to do. "
But maybe friendship is not always about trying to help someone out of pain. And sometimes, it's about helping them through. No matter how long it takes.
Join me today as we reflect on friendship, suffering, and the power of our words.
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Scripture Reading: Job 4-7 (NIV '84)
My Reading: "What NOT to say to a hurting friend" by Elizabeth Hayashi
 

"Here I sit in the dust with you.
"And words are escaping me.
"Which is funny because this meditation is literally just a bunch of words. But I’m hoping… I’m praying… I’m crying desperately to God that they won’t just be words. Because you’re pain is not just words.
"It’s so much deeper. So much more real...."
Hi friend, so recently I was really wrestling with some deep pain in my heart. I ended up reading Job, and it took me on an amazing journey I never could have expected or hoped for. Now, I'm wanting to invite you to take the same journey with me. Are you down?
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Scripture Reading: Job 1-3 (NIV '84)
My Reading: "Sitting in the Dust with You" by Elizabeth Hayashi
 

What are you still waiting for? What’s that really important thing that you still find yourself longing for? Right now, I’m waiting on a lot of healing as well as some dreams that still aren’t fulfilled.
In this world, we wait… a lot! We wait for a future spouse. We wait for our careers to finally take off. We wait to conceive a child. Waiting, waiting, waiting.
And sometimes, waiting can be really painful. We begin to wonder if we are really loved. Or if we’re doing something wrong. What do we do with the empty space of waiting? How can we find meaning even here? Join me on our final ‘Empty Spaces’ episode as we tackle this topic.
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My Reading: "The Wait" by Elizabeth Hayashi
Music Credit: Kate Kody, "Butterfly;" all rights protected under the Creative Commons License; minor changes made to the length of the track.

I cannot believe that one year ago today, I had just left my job due to crippling back pain and was just about to post my very first episode to 'Chronicles of a Healing Soul.' In the middle of SO much life transition, physical pain, and uncertainty, God gave me this gift. A creative outlet and a conduit to reach out to your heart: This beautiful podcast.
So, here I am one year later. And today, I'm talking about how it all got started, what I've learned, and the people I'm grateful for.
Friend, THANK YOU, for celebrating this podcast with me!
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My Reading: "Why I Write" by Elizabeth Hayashi
Music Credit: Kate Kody, "Butterfly;" all rights protected under the Creative Commons License; minor changes made to the length of the track.

Grief. What can I say about this word?It's a universal human experience. And yet all the sermons, podcasts, books, and YouTube videos often fall short of expressing the heart of loss. All I can add to the conversation is my own honest experiences with grief. And the things I have learned as a result. I hope somewhere in there you resonate and are reminded that grief honors the one you loved and lost. And as always, friend, please you remember that you are loved, known, and worth a big old hug. 
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My Reading: "The Child Grief" by Elizabeth Hayashi
Scripture References
"God will wipe every tear from their eyes..." - Revelation 21:4
The account of Nehemiah's grief - Nehemiah 1:4
"Jesus wept." John 11:35
"See how He loved him!" - John 11:36
The Man of Sorrows - Isaiah 53:3
Music Credit: Kate Kody, "Butterfly;" all rights protected under the Creative Commons License; minor changes made to the length of the track.

Hello friend,
Today, I wanted to keep it short and simple for you.
Here are just a few thoughts on navigating loneliness.
Much love to you!
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My Reading: "When I feel alone" by Elizabeth Hayashi

This podcast episode is for the one who feels swept away by the current of uncertainty. Are the unanswered questions keeping you awake at night? Are you trying to solve life's equations, but coming up empty?
Hi friend, welcome to Chronicles of a Healing Soul, where I share my own holistic healing journey to hopefully encourage you on yours! 
Today, I share how I've faced a lot of uncertainty in my life recently. Enter chronic injury that forces me on disability as well as a different life trajectory than I expected. I was left with a lot of unanswered questions. Questions I still don't have answers to. Join me as I wrestle through these questions and find my grounding in something even better than knowing all the answers!
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My Reading: "Mystery - Embracing the Unanswered Questions" by Elizabeth Hayashi
Scripture Reference: John 1:5
Research Reference: Bible Hub
Music Credit: Kate Kody, "Butterfly;" all rights protected under the Creative Commons License; minor changes made to the length of the track.

This podcast is for the one who never feels productive enough. For the one who always wants to do more than his or her chronic pain allows. Who wants to show people how successful he/she is, but at the end of the day secretly feels like a failure...Hi friend, welcome to my 'Chronicles of a Healing Soul.' Join me as we discuss the empty space of unproductivity. Perhaps there is more value here than meets the eye.
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My Reading: Psalm 23; "A series of diary entries" by Elizabeth Hayashi; and "'Hey Sis' - A Letter" by Elizabeth Hayashi